Dear Journal,

Time is such a scare resource isnt it? Sometimes I wonder if 24hours is even enough as I’m barely able to fit in all my commitments within 24hours and it just seems that I could do with much more time.

Socially I’m probably neglecting lots of my friends be it here in Manchester or even back in Singapore, it seems like its always them who are taking the initiative to keep the friendship going, and at times I do feel guilty about it that they are the ones who always initiates meetups. Its been quite sometime since I’ve last whatsapp most of my friends and catching up is really good, but at times I couldn't make it and it tends to bring disappointment to some. I know that, but I just didn't have time to do it, its not that I don't want to, but every miniute of my life I’ve got things to do, I’ve got work to prepare. Apart from that society stuff have been really catching up on me, it just seems that I’m responsible in doing up the projects while the rest are just tagging along, it could probably be me giving myself too much pressure to perform but ultimate we’re working in a group dealing with real clients! Shouldn't we be putting up our best front when working with them? just give a quick run through of the list of things I’ve got to do and its been piling up, I don't even dare to think of it now and just handle things that are on the verge of the deadlines first. I do feel at times I’m really crazy over work and devoting so much time into it resulting in an imbalance of social life at the same time.

It could probably be my lack in confidence towards this upcoming exams, knowing that I’ve got 7 papers to prepare, I tend to devote most of my time into them, hoping that I could achieve the results I want, along the way I’ve neglected important people, my friends, my society commitments and most importantly I’ve neglected D as well. I could tell that she’s disappointed at times when I have to leave because of work, because of societies, and we couldn't spend enough quality time together. She’s been compromising on this aspect and I really really appreciate it, I really hope that exams can get out of the way as its really been taking up a big portion of my time and its taking a toll on me. I’m tired almost every other day trying to sacrifice my sleep time so that I could do more during my waking hours but I realise this isn’t sustainable at all. It reduces my attention time spend, my brain isn’t as sharp as before, I couldn't lift my mood up all because I’m feeling tired. This has affected D a lot and although she tried to blend in it’ll be tough for her as well. How I wish I could have more than 24hours a day. Nevertheless I really hope that knowing this problem I could sort out my life properly and devote enough time for every aspect of my life, most importantly to D, because seeing how worried she was and how hard she’s trying makes me wanna do more for her. Makes me wanna erase all the negative emotion surrounding it. I hope I’m able to and we can go through these seemingly small and minute problems together and building a stronger relationship as time goes byJ.

I'll sort it out and not neglect anymore.

Alright I shouldn't be blogging so much I should use this time to actually do what’s on hand first!

Signing off,

Dear Journal,

You’ve got to seriously beat me up! Journal you seriously need to bash me up like never before to wake up my stupid idea. What the hell am I thinking!? God knows? I’ve never in my life regretted my actions so much as of today, yes I did have experiences in the past where I’ve regretted, but today.. the moment I’ve come to my senses I’m like WHAT AM I DOING!?

I knew it wasn't right but I’ve no idea what’s gotten into me when I woke up this morning, it just seems so surreal now when I’m recalling the incident. Looking myself in the mirror this morning I felt that I couldn't recognize the person in the mirror, his a total stranger to me, I actually ruined everything in my own hands. Everything was planned out so nicely, perfect arrangements, beautiful memories, but it just came and ruin it. I couldn't blame anyone for it as its my own actions that resulted in it, I just hated myself what can I do to atone for it? I guess I cant do anything anymore. Salvage it? No! there will always be a scar there, down the memory lane.

I couldn't believe its happening, reflecting so much since I got home and I just cant see me doing that! What more to someone who is SO important to me, I’ve ruined it. I held back my emotions, skyped my parents for alittle while and they’ll probably think I’m not their son anymore if I’ve told them what had happen, Dad, Mum, I’m wrong.. TOTALLY WRONG, COMPLETELY WRONG. Skyping always has their therapeutic  effect, but this time round it doesn't. filtered my emotions out and complete my work was all I told my brain to do. Hahaas but guess what!? It doesn't listen to me, thus it took me 6hours to actually complete the remaining 1/5 of my essay -.-“ That is pathetic!

Yes, I’m pathetic. Thought that hall is serving dinner tonight, head down and to my surprise! Its closed, thinking of just heading down to tesco to grab a sandwich and end my day by heading to bed. But I just couldn't stand staying in the room doing nothing knowing the wrong that I’ve done in the day. Grabbed my coat and headed out took an extremely long and slow walk to town, reflecting, thinking, preparing myself for the worst case scenario. I actually couldn't believe it while thinking through I realise how much D meant to me, never in my life have I felt such a strong feeling, that fear of losing, that fear of not knowing what will happen, that fear of being lost. It actually came to me that theres a possiblilty of me losing it, and the pain came, yes I’ve been heartbroken before but never have I felt that intense amount of pain before, my heart, my lungs contracted so much that I had difficulty breathing. The thought of losing D, ruining everything with my own hands, bashing me up wouldn't even be enough I should probably just walk myself into a lamppost and faint. Knowing that I’m not religious at all when I walked past a church, on seeing the doors open I was soo tempted to walk in to confess what I’ve done, just to say sorry and really hope that my apologies could actually be felt. I’m not exaggerating infact those words aren’t strong enough to describe how I felt. Along oxford road I secretly hope I would bump into D(hahhaas if you ever read this you gonna laugh at how weak I am-that strong front that I’ve always been putting up? It fell off and I wont be able to put it on anymore.), I wanted to say sorry, I wanted to say how much I’ve regretted, but at the same time I wonder after what I’ve done can I still face her? Met my friend along the way and I had to literally put up a strong nonchalant front, acting perfectly cool, catching up with him asking about his trips and stuff. It was a took 180 degree change the moment he left, the whole world collapsed again, just like before. I checked my phone every minute hoping to receive her call, her text and when my phone sounded! My world lighted up! Rushed to my phone, checked the message, tooo my utter dismay! It was my friend asking for help on his essay -.-“ it was such a turn off.

Initially I wanted to made my way to AMC, that's where most of the memories are, but I didn't know the way there, I refrained from using my phone to guide me there, I wanted to get there based on my memory, but I failed, failed badly. Instead I got myself to Piccadilly and along the way I went past the same route we took, the memories rushed back along with the pain held back everything I walked on. Told myself when I’m at arndale everything will be much more lively, so I’m able to hide my emotions and get some fresh air. Walked to arndale and shops are all closed, while I saw a street artist draw portraits I’ve always wanted to do one an probably this is the time to do one, not for me but for the one I’ve hurt. Before I could even approach him, my phone rang and of course I rushed to pick it up seeing the name on my screen, within me I was sooo happy my world literally lighted up but when I picked up the phone I didn't know what to say to her, how pathetic I am right? The call that I’ve been yearning for and when it actually happens I didn't know what to say and choking on my own tears. It was only a brief call although with a pinch of awkwardness within it made my day, it gave me hope. Although I wouldn't know what will happen as I’m suppose to go online when I get home and probably sort it out. But that simple call made everything so much more clearer, and I proceed on with the drawing with that street artist. Chatted a lot with him and his been doing this for more than 2 decades travelling around Europe drawing as his only source of income! That is pretty impressive I would say, and to be honest that's what I dreamt of doing when I was young. But know knowing how impractical it will be as well as I’ve found my passion in social work. Searched an awesome picture for him to draw and saw how he filled a piece of plain paper with beautiful lines and makes up a person. I’ve just realised how beautiful art could be, no matter how simple it is, no matter where it happens, art just frees you from all your worries and its really I pity that I’m SO BAD in art. This just makes me so envious of people who are really good in art, be it singing, dancing, drawing, theatre or any other form of art.

Alright enough of me ranting, thanks journal for absorbing all my rubbish it felt better saying it out but I’m still keeping my fingers crossed for everything that’s installed for me.

P.S The artist said the girl in the picture is sweet, and I smiled saying thank you and walked away thinking how uncertain everything gonna be from then on.

Dear Journal,

*Swipes away all the dust on you*
Sorry for not posting on you for such a long time, i've been really busy with my life and now that my life is complete its time to fill you  up with all my thoughts, so be prepared to absorb all the new information that i'm gonna feed you with!

Life is just so unpredictable isn’t it? You never know what the next moment have been installed for you, you can predict what you’ll encounter next, what youre feelings will be. Just have to take it as it comes react to it as it hits you, that's the magical of life, the mystery of life.

Recently life have been like a roller coaster ride to me, filled with ups and downs having just completed my drama after months of hardwork, although it didn't turned out to be as professional as what I’ve envisioned it to be, but what matters most was that people enjoyed it, friends came down to support it, the crew had fun and developed strong friendships along the way. It's the experience that counts, the process that we went through that made it so special. Along with several events to prepare for and school work to catch up on, time flies since semester 2 starts, and I’m already halfway through easter break now! And exams are round the corner before summer actually begins and its gonna be one helluva experience that I’m actually eager to have.

I had the best break of my life so far, heading to London was the best experience so far, it isn’t the place that gave that awesome experience, it's the people you’re with, the things you went through together that left a lasting impression on me. The meal we had with my friend’s family was totally awesome, the food was good and what’s important was the feeling that they gave me, that homely feel, brothers bickering and a lovely mum looking after them.

Asking the question that meant so much to me on april fools day was one of the best decision I made, although it didn't turn out as awesome as what I thought it would be but it sets everything else in place. Than it was Tower Watsons insight day in London, dressing up in suit walking down central London just gives you a whole new experience, its all about experiencing what’s life like as a working professional in London. An awesome experience with them with so much knowledge and experience being given by them made that trip totally worthwhile! To top it off, heading home after that was simply amazing, firstly I boarded the train home without my return ticket and hoping to talk my way out of it as I’ve lost mine in the process of rushing home. I was mentally prepared to pay that extra £50 but the train conductor was so kind to accept my explanation that I’ve lost my ticket and let me get away without paying for a new ticket. With the thought of going back to MCR to have dinner with someone special just makes the trip back home so much more enjoyable. A pleasant surprise is just all it takes to make your day, that unexpected pick up at the station was the highlight of the day despite it being such an eventful day already. Quality time spent is all that matters and no question asked we had that. To top everything off the next morning was snowing, in april! You get to witness snow in april  is a rare sight that makes it all the more special. To end it off, with a call from the post service, that my visa is done and its at the reception for collection.

I just couldn't believe so many things happened within such a short time frame and it trule treasure every moment that I had. Life will probably be different from now onwards, and I just cant wait for exams to be over to spend quality time with her, before heading off to the land of freedom to have an out of the world experience with a bunch of youthful teenagers J 3months of experience that I’ve always wanted, the social work sector that I’m really passionate about(screw that accounting-finance) a social worker is so much cooler! But its also 3months away from the connected world, 3 months away from her that makes it so much more unbearable despite I’m doing what I really love.

These are just life events that we have to get through to move on in life, theres nothing you can do but to make out the most of every opportunity in life and life the most out of it, theres always emails, text, and that occasional phone calls so what 3 months, its gonna breeze through even without you knowing. April is the best month yet since my time in UK, and I’ve never regret any decisions that I’ve made. Its just getting better and more fulfilling as each day passes.

Signing off,

Dear Journal,

Sometimes you just feel so tired and wanna get back to the comfort zone that you used to have, as that is where you’re most familiar with, the place where you can just be yourself and know that people will hold on to you when you fall.

That is exactly the same feeling I had today when I went on to SGCares facebook page and website, as I was searching for inspiration for a presentation of mine. I realised how much I’ve missed out for the past 4-5mths, be it the gatherings or the volunteer work that happened and noticed that Team SGCares grew a lot! Which is a good thing! The feeling of volunteering back from where you’ve started just makes it so much better, although I’ve been very involved in social work here and have countless of FIRST experiences but nothing beats volunteering at the place where you’ve first found your passion. Flashes of memories flew back to me in swarms, and that nostalgic feel just tempts you to wonder how good will it be if I’m back in my comfort zone. Exploring new grounds, carrying all the responsibilities on your shoulders is tiring, and I mean very tiring! At times its probably a good thing to let go of afew, however I’ve got to admit I’m too greedy to hang on to them as I’ve wanted to make the most while I’m here.

Probably I should transform these nostalgic feel to motivation and power me through the rest of my time here. Initially I thought how strong I would be not missing home a single bit, able to leave everything behind and start anew, but I’m soo wrong. These little bits and pieces brings back the wonderful memories that I had, the big family that I really miss and the fun and laughter that we all had. The smiles of each like minded individuals etched in my memories and these wonderful memories will be enough to last me thorugh the years I’m here.

Don't worry I might have just exaggerated on how much I’ve missed home but its actually the sudden surge in memories that came back to me where I couldn't help it but to blog it down. Everyday have been fulfilling for me from the moment I wake up I’m busy with lectures, societies, meetings, trainings, workshops, social work to the time I go to bed. Hahas not that bad actually, there are time for social life, sports, drinks and late night chats. Probably that's how college life should be and I’ve never regret  a single moment of the decisions I’ve made.

Alright its probably time to catch up with all the stuff that I’ve procrastinated, felt so good after putting down my feelings and it just spurs me on to achieve greater heightsJ SGCares will always be a part of my memory which is why I’m dying to visit NYCares and hopefully I could find that connection between SGCares.

Cheers,

Signing off.

Dear Journal,

Its gonna be Chinese New Year soon, however here in Manchester you don't really feel the atmosphere. This being the 2^nd time away from home during CNY just felt very casual, and whats the worst thing? I’m having an exam on the 23^rd Day 1 of CNY! How great could that be! Oh wells its gonna be dinner with friends after the paper in Chinatown, hopefully we do get the feel of CNY~

That being said after exams gonna be one helluva semester for me. Just by looking at the things that are laid down for me, its gonna be packed with lotsa stuff, should I say that I’m being greedy and overload myself with commitments and activities? Or should I say I’m just making the most out of my time in Uni, especially my first year as it isn’t counted towards my final grading anyways, must as well use this time to gather as much experience as I could possibly get.  Before leaving for UK I’ve made a promise to myself to live every second to the fullest and I hope I’m doing it right now with all the commitments that I have in hand. With 8 modules 5 societies and volunteering commitments I guess I’ll be totally worn out by the time it gets to exam time in May, however I believe this is gonna be my most productive year yet, not forgetting my socializing and travelling time. Just 1 week after exams I’ll be organizing a Southeast Asian night as part of the commitment of being in the international 16 and reason for not organizing a Singapore night only?(Since I’m from Singapore) Because…. I know NUTS about Singapore! Hahas.. Probably you could put it that I don't have a childhood, haven actually experience anything truly Singapore. So with Thailand, Indonesia Malaysia and Philippines  in I could just cover the surface of each of them and make an awesome night! Whats after that night?  It’ll be focus on Drama as our first show would probably be in March and before that? Fundraising events and volunteering, I guess that's the only way I could gain experience in volunteering as I would really love to be in the social work sector in the future, and to the fact that I’m not doing a social work degree gaining valuable experience would definitely help in my CV in the future if I ever want to get into the social work sector. Having attended training workshop on how to design a business plan for Not for profit organizations its time to put all those that I’ve learnt into use, this semester we’re be approaching some charities and offer them the opportunity for us to do up a business plan for them for free! Its gonna be a great learning experience for us and it’ll definitely benefit them from these analytical studies that we’ve done for them. Because of the recent video that I’ve made for my application to America Camp it sparked my interest in video editing and I’m gonna do it for my Drama society and International 16, I just cant believe how much art & culture I’ve exposed myself to ever since I’m in UK. Drama, Dance, Video editing,(Not gonna try singing thou)this could actually strike a balance as I want to develop both sides of my brain and not the logical and mathematical side only!

For the past month I actually couldn't believe that I’ve studied so hard and this was the first time I’m actually doing this. Clocking 6-12 hours everyday studying, trying to perfect every aspect of the topic. For the past month the number of hours I’ve clocked could probably cover the time I’ve spent studying in my whole life, never in my life have I studied more than 2hours at a go, even for my O levels! Needless to say in RP, I haven spend more than 30mins studying for my test in RP, its gonna be a big jump that now I’m spending hours and hours studying for a topic. Sometimes I’ve afraid that by studying so hard I might lose my ability to think practically, and just act according to the books. As I realise how rigid the education system is, there will ONLY be one right answer ONE way to solving a problem, this kills of creativity, stops you from innovating I fear of losing this ability of being street smart, the tacit knowledge that I regard to be more valuable than the book knowledge that I acquire through college. I guess I’ll probably immerse myself more in societies as studies could probably be shifted down to part time. Nevertheless I still have the responsibilities to get the grades, my strive for perfection on both sides. The best of both worlds, that's what I want, and I’m being greedy! I’ve no idea if I could achieve such a high goal that I’ve set myself, but being a perfectionist I’ll strive to be perfect in every aspect that I set out to do. I guess it's the pressure that I’ve put on myself that I had to score well in my exams, the thought of getting a first class. But at times while studying it just made me realise, whats the value of a college degree? Just so that you could get a day job paying you £5000 a month? That's not what I want, money is essential but that's not my goal in life, so what if you’ve got the cash, have you achieved your dreams? Have you lived your life to the fullest? Have you experienced the best moments in life yet? But sad to say in order to do all this money is definitely needed thus my choice of going into accounting finance I figured that's the quickest way to get the cash you need to fund your dreams. To actually touch the lives and many less fortunate people, to help anyone who are in need, to be on the ground truly experiencing their hardship, to share the same meal as them, living under the same roof as them to understand how they feel. That's what I want to achieve, to reach out to those who are really in need. But all these require finances don't they?

Summer will at the same time be one of the best moments in life, I’ve just received the application forms and certificates of confirmation for my US visa and I can actually feel that its real, that I’m going America for a summer job and its with participants of special needs which is exactly what I want to be involved in. It really seems like a dream come true for me, to absorb and learn as much as I could. Not forgetting the opportunity to travel America after my summer job and to drop by NY Cares and do a couple of ad hoc volunteering with them. It have been a goal for me ever since I started applying to America, to visit NY Cares as I’ve long heard of it since my time with SG Cares but I would like to actually get in touch with the people over there and see how NY Cares actually work. Since SG Cares have influenced me so much and NY Cares being affiliated to SG Cares it's a definite must for me to head down there and check them out! I can finally fulfil this dream of mine in September!

When I graduate in 2years+ time would I look back and say I’ve done the best that I can? Or would I say I’ve regretted not doing this or that? I’ll go for the former one and I’m gonna push myself and achieve as much as I can, college is the time for eperiences, to make mistakes, to learn and to find your forte and passion. That's exactly what I’m doing now and hope to graduate not only gaining intellectual knowledge but life changing experiences as well which I believe is much more important. That's all for now I’m going back to studies! 3 more papers to go before the end of the semester, which at the same time marks, the beginning of a new semester and the start of a whole new journey filled with experiences.

Signing off,

Dear Journal,

I cant believe 2011 is about to be over that quickly, time flies when you’re not aware of it, looking back this past year I’ve grown a lot, done a lot, experience a lot and it was definitely a fruitful year for me. Last 5 months of national service for me was pretty smooth sailing I would say, experienced a live firing in South Africa that not many people would have a chance. After leaving the service I’ve tried a variety of jobs and learnt a lot from them, it made me realize that how hard money was earned, through every beats of sweat and hardwork to earn them but I’ve gotta say it made me stronger it made me see things from another point of view and I’ve grown. Next was volunteering was an awesome year for me having experiencing so much about volunteering made great friends and awesome experiences through it that made my life so fulfilling.

Now its 3months into my new life in Manchester, I’m absolutely loving every moment here as it was an opportunity to experience things that I might not get back home. The societies that I’m in provided great exposure and opportunities for me, seen a lot, learnt a lot and did a lot, it just made me realize how big this world is and I’ve only see such a small part of it.

I cant believe that in 3 weeks time I’m going to take my first exam in close to 3 years, I’ve been TRYING to study but I think I’ve only made little progress on it. Its probably the amount of pressure and expectations that I give myself that I have to succeed, I have to do well and make my parents proud, to achieve what I’ve set out to do and to fulfill my goals that it gives me no room for failure. I believe stress and pressure will push me to my limits and make me outperform from what I thought I couldn't achieve. However at times I do feel helpless as the stuff that were suppose to be easy seems so hard for me, due to my weak foundation that I had so much to catch up now that I really regret that I screwed up my secondary school life. I even feel ashamed to mention how screwed up I am during those days, but I guess its too late to regret or even complain now, you can only look ahead and try to salvage those loss time. That also explains why I’m doing so much because I’ve wasted so much of my life and the only way is probably to pack more now so that I could atleast recover some loss time by gaining more than what normal people could have gotten. At times studying in a country where people know nothing about national service and comes from a complete different background from you just makes me hate myself and Singapore even more, as they are atleast 4-5 years younger than me I’m just so envious of them as I’m like 4-5 years slower than them. Partly due to me wasting too much time taking the longer education route in Singapore that made me slower than them as well as the 2 years of military service that made me so old as compared to the rest. This frustration just builds up within and it just increases my hatred towards my incompetency in the past and military service in Singapore, why should we waste our time doing something meaningless where I could put those yaers into better use. For the past 3 months here I felt I’m so much more productive than the 2 years I spend in army. Its just a waste that everything is set and I couldn't change anything now, however I told myself in the future if I ever do have kids I wouldn't want my son to waste 2 years of his life in army doing meaningless stuff I would rather he goes on a gap year in a 3^rd world country volunteering, he could have gained so much more than in the military. It felt so good complaining to you that we should move on to the happier side of things now!

So its gonna be 2012 in a couple of days soon so have you thought of your New Year resolutions already? Its been a tradition as I’ve spent that year with some close friends and we wrote down our new year resolution for that year and swap our resolutions and promising that from time to time again we got to remind each other of the resolution and make sure that we’ve achieved it before the year ends. Thus ever since 2010 that I’ll think of 3 resolutions that I’m gonna achieve in the year and for the past 2 years I’ve successfully achieved all of them, and I would say I’m really contented with all that I have now that I’m worried what if I come out with 3 resolutions for next year that I might not be able to fulfill it. I really don't wanna break my 100% record but since I’ve set the tradition I’m gonna adhere to it and follow through it and believe in this motto: Impossible is nothing!

This marks the end of a chapter in my life so I’m just wondering if I should end it with a full stop or a comma? A full stop would end whatever I’m doing now and start afresh, it could beneficial and refreshing at times depending on situation or should I use a comma so that I could take a breather and continue on what I’m pursuing? Should I let it go or should I continue on with my pursue? Its been a dilemma for me for the past couple of days, my logical side tells me to put a full stop to it as I’m about to get burnt out soon if I continue on but my emotional side tells me to pursue on as you’ll never know what the outcome would be till you give it your best shot isn’t it? The feeling sucks thoroughly but I’ve no idea what I should really do, on one side I want let it go so that I could free myself and do what I’ve always wanted to do but on the other I’m very reluctant in letting it go because of the vast amount of effort that I ‘ve put in and I really want to taste the fruit of it if it ever do have an outcome, but at the back of my mind I know its gonna be a long marathon for me if I continue my pursue on it, the only question I should ask myself now is if its worth all the effort? I could actually answer it right now, it’ll definitely worth every ounce of effort if it succeed but what if it fails? I’ll probably lose quite a number of things along the way and that wouldn't be nice. Every gamble comes with a price to pay, so should I take it or pull out while I still can. I’ve no idea. Why should we be burdened by emotions? Why do human beings have emotions? Why can’t we be cold hearted and not let emotions affect us? I’ve been trying to control my emotions for ages but at certain point of time I always lose it, why cant I suppress it every time I want to, why does it overwhelm me and make me fight a losing battle against it.

Don't worry journal, I’m not that depressed over here in Manchester this is just part of my life and part of my emotions only, I’ve been spending vast amount of time with awesome friends and I truly treasure each and everyone of them, but at times I do miss the people and community back in Singapore. They are the ones along with local delights that are holding me back from ditching Singapore altogether.

Signing off,

Dear Journal,

It's been almost 2 mths in UK now and I've grown accustomed to the life now, with a daily routine of lectures, readings, sports, societies activities and slp. Sleep have been a luxury now, and u realise theres a limit to how much one can do before fatigue sets in and be a liability to you. Thus reading week came just at the right time or me! A week without school and by right students are expected to catchup on their work but the norm have been for students to travel during this "holiday" I'm no exception as well, it's Ben fully packed and I've checked out London, Liverpool an watched my very first Man U match at Old Trafford! I'm guilty for packing Su much stuff into y reading week that everyday I'm only surviving with 5hours if slp but it's been very fulfilling, although guilty at times I try to bring wok with me wherever I'm going, transferred all the required readings into PDF formats and load it into my phone and I should be doing my reading now as I'm on the metro now travelling back but instead I'm blogging on my phone! How ironic.

I'm actually travelling back from an interview where in trying to secure an opportunity to wok in America next summer as a camp instructor, the interview went well and all I have to do now would be to wait for the various camps to pick me as one if their instructor! Awesome feeling:)

Pressure is alway there to perform, to attain the results that I've set for myself, and his is what keeps me going despite the fatigue and I do believe in this saying that in order to be successful later in life you've gotta put in the effort now! So no complains and strive for it now.

That's all for now and I should really be spending my remaining few days of reading week to complete my work and catch up on my studies as university will be the only place where mistakes are forgiven and learning takes place with new experiences everyday, you wouldn't get that when you enter working life so I should really focus for what I'm really here for to get a degree!( but at the same time get the most out of the extra curricular activities:p)

Signing off,

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